I'm all about self-love and cultivating that at every stage in your journey. It's a beautiful thing. But, I'm going to be real here, that shit is hard sometimes.
Last week I took a progress photo and had a mini freak out for about 3 days. I saw clear regression in my body that made me feel inadequate and disappointed. I refused to recognize how far I've come physically and mentally and I started comparing current photos to photos of myself at my leanest and comparing myself to others. I was sinking into old patterns of associating how I looked with what I was worth.
I am not at my leanest or strongest. I've been tracking my nutrition more loosely than normal. I've been training my best given my life at the moment but not how I usually do and not my hardest. I've been injured and sick, I've been managing routine changes and total schedule overhauls. I'm weighing heavier and measuring larger. My definition has softened as have my hips have rounded out a bit more than I like. It's not ideal, but this is life.
I want you to know we all go through these phases. No one is immune. No matter what you look like or where you are in your journey, those negative thoughts still creep in sometimes. For me, self-love is a process, it's not something where you just decide "well I guess I'm going to try that whole self-love thing now" and the next day you're totally in love with yourself and glowing. It's something you have to strive for and work at. Negative thoughts still creep in no matter what you're body looks like. Insecurities still pop up. You still have times where you feel like you're not enough, and that's okay. The important thing is that you recognize it. You recognize those thoughts are coming from an irrational, destructive, place of fear, and that they do not serve you, and you let them go.
We have to embrace our imperfection, trust our journey, and accept that we will have set backs and come backs. We have to feel all the feels, go through all the things, make the many mistakes, learn from these things, and just keep right on moving forward. Our worth is not tied to a result. We are flawed and we are beautiful.
#perfectlyimperfect #keepingitreal .